In Seventh Heaven

I do believe that you know how it feels when things are going the right way. Things are much lighter and life is much brighter. The feeling was just so overwhelming before that i didn’t care where i am going to. Later did i know that i was heading the wrong direction but fortunately, i was able to take a halt before everything comes to worst. And now that i am already in my proper senses (LOL), the peaceful mind that i once have had is now within me. Gladly, i’ve realized things before it will destroy me – the very fragile me. And this time around, i will wait. If waiting will take forever, then so be it, for as long as it is worth it…

It’s All Saints’ Day and we were supposed to go to the cemetery but things changed because of some unavoidable circumstances. Bro left with his girlfriend, Mom and Dad had something to attend to and they brought along my son and so here I am, home alone but not lonely. I’m keeping myself busy dropping ec and reading some posts that catches my attention and give comments whenever i feel like it. I was thinking of turning on the Winamp and listen to music ’cause it’s so quiet here but thought otherwise. I’d rather have it this way so i can concentrate on the posts that i read. My right hand sores a bit now from clicking the mouse over and over again but i’m almost done anyway. My stomach is quite grumbling now too. Wish they’ll be home any minute so i can feed my tummy already. Sigh…

Because it’s not worth it afterall. I may have invested my time, my emotions but it’s always been like that. We would never know certain things if we won’t put time in it. But i have no regrets whatsoever. It’s part of life or should i say, it’s life’s spices. We will never learn without those mistakes. Those mistakes make us a better person not to mention stronger one at that. At least i’ve realized things before they get even deeper. And one thing i’m certain of…it’s not my lost. (“,)

It is gloomy and so am i, i guess. I’m not at all busy today and my mind just keep on wandering. What am i thinking? Nothing in particular. Random things. I’ve talked to my dear friend today who’s been out of the country for a while and it quite gave me gladness since it’s been a while that we haven’t had a talk like that. I just had lunch and i think i will take a nap later to rest my tired mind. That’s the best thing to do for now…i guess.

And so am i. I don’t know. I don’t have any problem of some sort. Sometimes i’m just like this — worried of people who’s probably not worrying about me at all. Nah, perhaps they do. But i kind of feeling like this just now actually. I was out with my sister earlier and thoughts that’s bothering me now didn’t cross my mind for once this morning. Well maybe because my mind was busy as compared now. That’s the reason why i always want to keep myself busy because more often than that, i think of the strangest things whenever i’m idle. Oh well, i’m starting to get busy again though — by dropping ec and blog hopping. Haven’t done this for a couple of days because the pc here is just so busy. So here i am again.

Have you been in a situation that you felt empty without any reason at all? I was like that earlier. I was just staring blankly at…i don’t really know where. I have no problems whatsoever. I was reading texts from friends prior to that and the messages are all feel-good but how come i still felt empty. Is something missing? I don’t know. Maybe i’m just missing my man or bored perhaps. Oh well, i don’t feel empty now though. I’m trying to keep my mind busy…so busy that no sad thoughts can ever get in.

I was at the mall with my girlfriend the other day just to have snack and of course, the never-ending chitchat. We both decided to have our snack at KFC and we took a seat near the entrance where people passing by along the hallway are very visible to us. It wasn’t in our plan to sit there. It was just the nearest seat from the counter so that’s it.

Anyways, it was payday so the mall was kind of jampacked but what caught our attention were the pairs or should i say lovers who passes by. My friend has been separated for a while and i’ve been single for a while now too, so we’re like, “how i wish we have our pair too.” We kept laughing on the thought. Well, it feels good having someone around who would keep you company not to mention, someone with whom you will share just about anything about your life. Sigh! That’s all we can do…sigh…(“,)

Everyone of us, i believe so has this “dream” or “ideal” guy, so to speak. Though we don’t usually end up with those guys, but still it remains there. Most women do still have those qualifications for the guy they want to be with and i am not an exception. I do have my qualifications though i always end up forgetting all about it whenever i fall. You know what i mean. I do consider physical appearance first and foremost but i usually forgot about it as soon as i get to talk to the guy and discover his wit and humor. It does weigh much heavier as compared to the looks for me. I would want my guy to be smart. Intellectually stimulating as others would say it. I love it when i learn a lot from a guy. I can be immature at times and i would love my guy to be mature enough for me too. Those are just some of my weaknesses when it comes to my man. And i can say, those traits would definitely leave me head over heels. (“,)

I’ve been here in front of the pc since this morning. I just managed to get my butt out of here whenever i have to do some household chores. We don’t have helper again so i have to do it whether i like it or not. Folks are out and i’m left home with my son and my bro. I did a little blog hop – just to hit back those who visited me and dropped some ec. I’m just not in the mood to do blog hopping today. I’m just so lazy to do it.

And now it’s 2:30 in the afternoon. My sister was here a while ago only to leave her 1 month old son for me to babysit. She went to the mall for some groceries and other stuff – i don’t know what exactly though. Glad my nephew is still sleeping so i still can do my stuff here. But i have to make this fast ’cause he’ll probably wake up in a minute. Sigh! What a lazy and boring Sunday!